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Mehhhh.

Tired of being tired and feeling like ass and having this god-awful taste in my mouth always, ugh. I know, I know...the treatments are working. I am getting better, slooowly. I shouldn't complain. But goddammit I am so flipping fatigued always, and it's such a bummer.

I tried to do some cleaning today, because Artemis is coming to visit me in less than two weeks [yay!!!], and I got wiped out after half an hour [boo.]. I'll have to do it incrementally, fuuuuck. I don't like cleaning unless I'm in a groove, and incremental cleaning is the least groovy cleaning there is. But I haven't much choice.

It's been a depressing AF week anyway. Had chemo on Monday and had to get brake work done on the same day, whee. Have to have more expensive work done this Monday, but I guess at least I'll have a safe truck to drive. I won't be able to afford gas, but the truck will be safe, haha.

On Wednesday I went to see a new med-dispensing shrink because my current med-dispensing NP is leaving my therapist's practice [my therapist doesn't dispense meds] and after a battery of questions the shrink informed me I had bipolar disorder. I was like WTF, are you sure? He asked me some more questions, and was like, yeah, nobody's every diagnosed you with bipolar before? because you're definitely bipolar.

I was like...Oh. This is new. I must say, it's certainly been a summer of revelations. -____- He wants to put me on a mood stabilizer after I'm through with chemotherapy. I had a few days of reeling about it. I did some research and thinking, and I guess it's not too far off the mark, given some patterns of behavior, but it's still been hard to wrap my head around. I've been dealing with a lot of shit lately, and this is one more thing down the pike. It's just...one more thing.

But maybe the meds will be awesome, who knows. I told him I don't want anything that makes me feel dead inside, and he said there are other meds that can help if the one he's thinking of doesn't, and I'm just trying to trust his expertise. He's not a warm fuzzy guy by any stretch of the imagination, but he seems to know his meds up and down, which is more important. Also, oddly, he seemed to suss out that I was a Monty Python fan really quickly and then played me a Beyond the Fringe clip while he went to look for some paperwork. I'm not sure how he worked that out. Dr. House, anyone? *scratches head*

Isabella Blow, in my icon, is one of my fashion and style goddesses. She was also bipolar and had a very sad life that she ended prematurely. I do have to remind myself to be grateful for the good things I have.

*

Besides Rifftrax and MST3K [old and new], the only thing I've really watched on TV lately was The People vs. O.J. Simpson, which was way better than I thought it would be. I've been doing quite a bit of reading, though, because it's easier than watching something moving on a screen when you feel like shit. I just finished Crazy Rich Asians by Kevin Kwan, which was fluffy and fun enough for me to check out his two other books - I think they're sequels but I'm not sure. I read The Fireman by Joe Hill, which was okay but not as good as Heart Shaped Box. I reread all of Simon Doonan's books [I own them all] - he is in charge of all the windows at Barneys in New York, which - if you've never seen them, you should Google them, because they are fantastic. And he is hilarious and a wonderful writer and also married to Jonathan Adler, which is cool.

And I just read this peculiar French novel called A Rebours [Against Nature, or Against the Grain as some translations call it] about a guy named Jean des Esseintes who decides to shut himself away from society and build himself a world that is totally artificial and super-aesthetic and entirely to his own tastes.

I couldn't say it wasn't interesting. Des Essientes is the original hipster asshole - anything that's popular, he finds a reason to hate. He keeps etchings depicting scenes of torture on his walls. He concocts a meal of entirely black foods. He had a tortoise jeweled so he could watch its stones play light off the carpet he'd bought [the poor creature died from the cruelty]. He's so sexually jaded that he fucked a ventriloquist who simulated her husband bellowing from outside so that he could get the thrill of in flagrante delicto. He fucks young boys. He creates artificial flowers and all sorts of perfumes. He keeps a small library of 'pure' French and Latin books because everything else is shit. He reads Catholic theology for the smells and bells, and not because of actual faith or human goodwill. He decides to take a trip to London, but gets as far as an English pub in France and decides he's had enough of an authentic English experience and then heads back home.

Apparently this was the book that made Dorian Gray entranced in Oscar Wilde's novel, and served as a sort of primer for wannabe Decadents in the late 19th and early 20th century. I thought it was kind of funny/amusing myself, and wasn't sure if it was meant to be satire or not. I could see Brian Slade and Jack Fairy taking it very, very seriously. :)

Anyway, I suppose I'd recommend it. It's certainly stuck with me over the past couple of weeks.

Other than that, I've been reading a lot of stuff on MakeupAlley and Makeup Addiction on Reddit. Yep, I've become a Redditor, it's sad. But the makeup boards are so much fun. So many looks! So many tips! So much shade thrown at Jeffree Star and Doe Deere of Lime Crime! Two people who richly deserve it, tbh, no matter how cool their makeup lines are.

*

And then early this week, or late last week, I can't remember, I got a snarky comment on The Case of the Green Gown. It went something like [this is paraphrased]: well, I was GOING to leave you a kudos, but then you went and had Mycroft musing about torturing terrorists' families. Do you approve of this? Not to mention capital punishment!

I was like, oh, for fuck's sweet sake. So I answered, very succinctly. Basically, "Of course not. Depiction does not imply endorsement!"

Okay, first of all, if this person has an issue with capital punishment, they probably shouldn't be watching Sherlock, wherein our hero blows a man's face away at close range. And whose best buddy also effectively murders a guy in the very first episode.

Second of all...not quite sure how to put this. I don't think it pays to trust a narrator, you know? I certainly didn't write that story with the intention that every thought and action of any given narrator at any given time was right and good. In fact, the story was pretty much about a series of poor decisions. I don't know what else to say. If you *do* think that simply because Mycroft or Sherlock or John were the 'heroes' of the story, that they were always making the correct or morally pure choice along the way, you've missed the point.

That said...I have no control over what a reader thinks, do I? The author truly is dead. So while I thought it best to remind that particular reader that DEPICTION DOES NOT IMPLY ENDORSEMENT [good christ], that's as far as I was willing to go. I'm not very into over-explaining when it comes to fic. It's too much like work.

*

We got rain last night and it was glorious and cool, but tonight it's muggy and gross. Comme ci, comme ca. I'm off to watch Baryshnikov on Broadway on YouTube. Showboating little peacock, I love him so much.

Have a swell day and night!
splix: (sherlock sepia by govi20)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Archive Warnings: Major Character Death/No Archive Warnings Apply

Category: Gen

Fandom: Sherlock - Fandom

Relationships: Mycroft Holmes & Uncle Rudy / Eurus Holmes & Mycroft Holmes

Characters: Mycroft Holmes,Uncle Rudy (Sherlock),Eurus Holmes

Additional Tags: Terminal Illnesses, child psychopathy

Language: English

Summary: Uncle Rudy sits Mycroft down for tea and a chat.

Heirs and Assigns
splix: (cumberbatch benny martin by thblack)
Chapter 3 of Method Act is here. Please leave comments at AO3.
splix: (sherlock crop by wykling)
Hiya,

I'm taking a leaf from [livejournal.com profile] emmagrant01's notebook - I've decided to post my fic to AO3 only, but will post updates here for those who don't subscribe to me or who don't go to AO3 as a matter of course. Please leave kudos and/or comments, should you desire, at AO3.


Title: Method Act
Author: Alex
Fandom: Sherlock/RPF
Rating: Explicit
Pairing: Sherlock Holmes/John Watson, Benedict Cumberbatch/Tom Hiddleston, Sherlock Holmes/Mark Gatiss, Benedict Cumberbatch/John Watson, Benedict Cumberbatch/Molly Hooper, Sherlock Holmes/Louise Brealey, Sherlock Holmes/Tom Hiddleston, Benedict Cumberbatch/Mycroft Holmes
Summary: Something very strange keeps happening at 7:35 PM.
Note: Inspired by a prompt on the Sherlock Rant Meme. Thanks, anon prompter. :)
Content/Tags: Bodyswap, Pseudoscience, Magic, Alternate Universe, Light BDSM, Case Fic, Peril, Non-Consensual Bondage, Non-Sexual Bondage, RPF, Implied Relationships, Stalking, Kidnapping


Many thanks to kimberlite for stellar beta and steadfast friendship.



CHAPTER ONE
splix: (sherlock mycroft holmes brothers)
Title: A Purely Temporary Arrangement
Author: Alex
Fandom: Sherlock
Rating: Explicit
Pairing: Sherlock Holmes/Mycroft Holmes
Summary: Just this once. One more time.
Word Count: ~2000
Warnings: Violence, incest, barebacking. Please see AO3 for complete tags.
I'm indebted to [livejournal.com profile] arianedevere for providing the transcript to pertinent scenes.

A Purely Temporary Arrangement )
splix: (sherlock blue by miya_tenaka)
Title: Clavis Aurea [2/2]
Author: Alex
Fandom: Sherlock [BBC]
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Sherlock/Ian Adler; Implied Sherlock/John
Disclaimer: A.C. Doyle, Moffat, Gatiss.
Summary: While on his mission to bring down Moriarty’s network, Sherlock encounters an old acquaintance.

Warnings: Violence, torture, explicit sex, discussion of rape.

Note: A sequel to If You Can't Move Heaven, Raise Hell. Best if you read that for nuance, but not entirely necessary for context.

Thanks to [livejournal.com profile] kimberlite for the sharp-eyed beta.

Can also be read on AO3

Chapter 2 )
splix: (sherlock b/w by stormfronticons)
Title: Clavis Aurea [1/2]
Author: Alex
Fandom: Sherlock [BBC]
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Sherlock/Ian Adler; Implied Sherlock/John
Disclaimer: A.C. Doyle, Moffat, Gatiss.
Summary: While on his mission to bring down Moriarty’s network, Sherlock encounters an old acquaintance.

Warnings: Violence, torture, explicit sex, discussion of rape.

Note: A sequel to If You Can't Move Heaven, Raise Hell. Best if you read that for nuance, but not entirely necessary for context.

Thanks to [livejournal.com profile] kimberlite for the sharp-eyed beta.

Can also be read on AO3

Chapter 1 )
splix: (sherlock john wallpaper by bluebellanon)
Title: If You Can't Move Heaven, Raise Hell
Author: Alex
Fandom: Sherlock [BBC]
Rating: Varies
Pairing: Sherlock/John; Sherlock/Ian Adler; John Watson/Ian Adler; Jim Moriarty/Sebastian Moran
Disclaimer: A.C. Doyle, Moffat, Gatiss.
Summary: All John Watson wants is a peaceful fortnight's holiday in Cornwall. Fate has other plans.
Warnings: Violence, explicit sex, dubious consent.
Notes: I don't genderswap as a rule, but I saw this marvelous gif of Tom Hiddleston and Sherlock and couldn't resist. The rest is shameless self-indulgence.

Plot happily magpied from everywhere, with especial apologies to Umberto Eco.

Thanks to [livejournal.com profile] kimberlite for the sharp-eyed beta.

This fic is a gift for sithdragn, with affection.

Can also be read on AO3

Chapter 13 )
splix: (sherlock john coordinate by bluebellanon)
Title: If You Can't Move Heaven, Raise Hell
Author: Alex
Fandom: Sherlock [BBC]
Rating: Varies
Pairing: Sherlock/John; Sherlock/Ian Adler; John Watson/Ian Adler; Jim Moriarty/Sebastian Moran
Disclaimer: A.C. Doyle, Moffat, Gatiss.
Summary: All John Watson wants is a peaceful fortnight's holiday in Cornwall. Fate has other plans.
Warnings: Violence, explicit sex, dubious consent.
Notes: I don't genderswap as a rule, but I saw this marvelous gif of Tom Hiddleston and Sherlock and couldn't resist. The rest is shameless self-indulgence.

Plot happily magpied from everywhere, with especial apologies to Umberto Eco.

Thanks to [livejournal.com profile] kimberlite for the sharp-eyed beta.

This fic is a gift for sithdragn, with affection.

Can also be read on AO3

Chapter 12 )
splix: (sherlock john BAMF by lostgirlslair)
Title: If You Can't Move Heaven, Raise Hell
Author: Alex
Fandom: Sherlock [BBC]
Rating: Varies
Pairing: Sherlock/John; Sherlock/Ian Adler; John Watson/Ian Adler; Jim Moriarty/Sebastian Moran
Disclaimer: A.C. Doyle, Moffat, Gatiss.
Summary: All John Watson wants is a peaceful fortnight's holiday in Cornwall. Fate has other plans.
Warnings: Violence, explicit sex, dubious consent.
Notes: I don't genderswap as a rule, but I saw this marvelous gif of Tom Hiddleston and Sherlock and couldn't resist. The rest is shameless self-indulgence.

Plot happily magpied from everywhere, with especial apologies to Umberto Eco.

Thanks to [livejournal.com profile] kimberlite for the sharp-eyed beta.

This fic is a gift for sithdragn, with affection.

Can also be read on AO3

Chapter 11 )
splix: (hiddleston ian adler)
Title: If You Can't Move Heaven, Raise Hell
Author: Alex
Fandom: Sherlock [BBC]
Rating: Varies
Pairing: Sherlock/John; Sherlock/Ian Adler; John Watson/Ian Adler; Jim Moriarty/Sebastian Moran
Disclaimer: A.C. Doyle, Moffat, Gatiss.
Summary: All John Watson wants is a peaceful fortnight's holiday in Cornwall. Fate has other plans, to wit:

1. An abbey in the Italian Alps
2. Murder
3. Mayhem
4. Criminals he has known and would rather forget
5. Bondage
6. Sex
7. Sherlock

Not necessarily in that order.


Warnings: Violence, explicit sex, dubious consent.
Notes: I don't genderswap as a rule, but I saw this marvelous gif of Tom Hiddleston and Sherlock and couldn't resist. The rest is shameless self-indulgence.

Plot happily magpied from everywhere, with especial apologies to Umberto Eco.

Thanks to [livejournal.com profile] kimberlite for the sharp-eyed beta.

This fic is a gift for sithdragn, with affection.

Can also be read on AO3

Chapter 10 )
splix: (sherlock reflection by stormfronticons)
Title: If You Can't Move Heaven, Raise Hell
Author: Alex
Fandom: Sherlock [BBC]
Rating: Varies
Pairing: Sherlock/John; Sherlock/Ian Adler; John Watson/Ian Adler; Jim Moriarty/Sebastian Moran
Disclaimer: A.C. Doyle, Moffat, Gatiss.
Summary: All John Watson wants is a peaceful fortnight's holiday in Cornwall. Fate has other plans, to wit:

1. An abbey in the Italian Alps
2. Murder
3. Mayhem
4. Criminals he has known and would rather forget
5. Bondage
6. Sex
7. Sherlock

Not necessarily in that order.


Warnings: Violence, explicit sex, dubious consent.
Notes: I don't genderswap as a rule, but I saw this marvelous gif of Tom Hiddleston and Sherlock and couldn't resist. The rest is shameless self-indulgence.

Plot happily magpied from everywhere, with especial apologies to Umberto Eco.

Thanks to [livejournal.com profile] kimberlite for the sharp-eyed beta.

This fic is a gift for sithdragn, with affection.

Can also be read on AO3

Chapter 9 )
splix: (sherlock john height difference)
Title: If You Can't Move Heaven, Raise Hell
Author: Alex
Fandom: Sherlock [BBC]
Rating: Varies
Pairing: Sherlock/John; Sherlock/Ian Adler; John Watson/Ian Adler; Jim Moriarty/Sebastian Moran
Disclaimer: A.C. Doyle, Moffat, Gatiss.
Summary: All John Watson wants is a peaceful fortnight's holiday in Cornwall. Fate has other plans, to wit:

1. An abbey in the Italian Alps
2. Murder
3. Mayhem
4. Criminals he has known and would rather forget
5. Bondage
6. Sex
7. Sherlock

Not necessarily in that order.


Warnings: Violence, explicit sex, dubious consent.
Notes: I don't genderswap as a rule, but I saw this marvelous gif of Tom Hiddleston and Sherlock and couldn't resist. The rest is shameless self-indulgence.

Plot happily magpied from everywhere, with especial apologies to Umberto Eco.

Thanks to [livejournal.com profile] kimberlite for the sharp-eyed beta.

This fic is a gift for sithdragn, with affection.

Can also be read on AO3

Chapter 8 )
splix: (sherlock john bad days)
Title: If You Can't Move Heaven, Raise Hell
Author: Alex
Fandom: Sherlock [BBC]
Rating: Varies
Pairing: Sherlock/John; Sherlock/Ian Adler; John Watson/Ian Adler; Jim Moriarty/Sebastian Moran
Disclaimer: A.C. Doyle, Moffat, Gatiss.
Summary: All John Watson wants is a peaceful fortnight's holiday in Cornwall. Fate has other plans, to wit:

1. An abbey in the Italian Alps
2. Murder
3. Mayhem
4. Criminals he has known and would rather forget
5. Bondage
6. Sex
7. Sherlock

Not necessarily in that order.

So much for Cornwall.

Warnings: Violence, explicit sex, dubious consent.
Notes: I don't genderswap as a rule, but I saw this marvelous gif of Tom Hiddleston and Sherlock and couldn't resist. The rest is shameless self-indulgence.

There is definitely going to be dubious consent in the story - how dubious I'm not yet sure, but I will change the warnings if need be. If this poses a difficulty with triggers, please be advised now that the warnings may change.

Plot happily magpied from everywhere, with especial apologies to Umberto Eco.

Thanks to [livejournal.com profile] kimberlite for the sharp-eyed beta.

This fic is a gift for sithdragn, with affection.

Can also be read on AO3

Chapter 7 )
splix: (sherlock mycroft holmes brothers)
Title: Wrong With Us
Author: Alex
Fandom: Sherlock
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Sherlock/Mycroft; implied Mystrade; implied Johnlock
Disclaimer: No money made, no harm intended. Characters property of Arthur Conan Doyle and derived from the BBC series Sherlock.
Summary: "Do you ever wonder if there's something wrong with us?"
Warnings: Consensual incest, underaged sex, implied violence, implied rape, unhealthy coping techniques.
Notes: Originally written for the 2012 Con*strict zine. Thanks to [livejournal.com profile] kimberlite for beta and friendship; thanks to [livejournal.com profile] sian1359 for the beautiful frontispiece.

Can also be read on AO3

Wrong With Us )

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